The Happy Hippie

I am tired of apologising to myself for not being consistent - here. 

But again, I refuse to be hard on myself, again because my writer’s block has its timeline. 

Also, again - I only write what/when I feel something extremely deep - which happens almost everyday - but scattered. So it takes time for me to put the pieces together and come up with an original. So now you know why I left my job as a copywriter. 

But today is the day - things came together. For this piece at least. 

Because I finally decided to 'go with the flow'  and getting used to life like that. 

I am a planner - that’s probably how I landed in PR. Planning is an essential skill in PR - but took me a while to understand that it is almost impossible to PLAN your life. 

Unless you have a text book or a manual for reference. If you have one, good for you, because I don't. 

I was raised in a system programmed to follow the manual - but at 33, I realised there is no MANUAL - actually no one has one. We are not machines. 

Self discovery was inspiring back then, self awareness was hard to grasp - I read so much about people like Oprah, Hitler, Gandhi, and writers/people gave them a portrayal that the world had to see - and eventually making them an example for every scenario in life. 

We had examples growing up - and eventually got inspired - which is not a bad thing. 

But these examples just grew into us - and we forgot to live the life we are supposed to live and be the people we are meant to be. 

So, with all these examples - I was trying to work on a 'manual' that was presented to me. 

Especially around my dad loves to quote after Gandhi - so I assumed Gandhi was GREAT - he wasn’t really, was he?

Remember how we used to stick out our ears close to the radio speakers, while we try to tune into our favourite radio channel? I was trying to tune my life, to become one of these 'examples'. 

It was draining. I panicked every year on my birthday. I panicked every time something did not go as planned. 

It’s good to be inspired by someone or something - but we become so codependent and defensive that we forget to be present in any situation. 

We run back to references, seek validation and survive on external confirmation. 

I am still guilty of all these - but here’s where I am learning how to get into the flow of life. 

I have been called a ‘Hippie’ for sharing these thoughts. 

But I reminded them to identify me as the ‘HAPPY HIPPIE’ 

Coz, most of the things I do these days - gives me real emotions. 

So, I have tuned in... Right? 

Best, 

#thehappyhippie