I brought four travel luggages, 5 big IKEA bags and about 6 big boxes of stuff to Langkawi in June 2017.
It was a nightmare moving stuffs to an island, especially when you’re dead BROKE.
I didn’t know how things were going to work out in the Island; I didn’t know if I would like it, I didn’t know if I was going to fit in well.
I was Jon Snow. I packed my bags (and boxes) and left. To be honest, it feels pretty cool to say that out loud now.
I packed my bags and fled to an island. I just did.
And currently.... blogging here. Yes, WHO KNEW!
oh, Hi!
When I got here, I strategically placed all my stuff in a corner (out of my sight) so that I can ignore it forever.
Every night I told myself - ‘This weekend we are going to unpack and sort these things out’
I may have repeated this a gazillion times in my life – MY BRAIN IS A WAR ZONE. It is a tiring place to be, making it even more difficult to do ‘normal’ things – unpacking, de-cluttering and cleaning can be a teeth pulling experience for me.
It was pointless to set personal goals, prepare lists, and set timelines. Funny that didn’t happen for work.
Every day I retired on my bed saying ‘I’ll do it tomorrow’ – unfortunately every ‘tomorrow’ was overwhelming.
Instead, to keep myself going, I had late nights of binging on Pinterest, self help articles/videos by Martha, Oprah and Ellen and then 9 weeks later it finally dawned on me.
Instead of a mental breakdown, I had a mental breakthrough this time. LOL
At 10 p.m on a Thursday night, I started unpacking and I finished at 1 a.m. I took my shower and slept like a baby, feeling extremely proud of myself.
I went back to work the next day, and this time made a list of things I have to look into in the next three weeks.
And then three weeks of work happened and things are alright now
You might not be able to connect the dots – between clutter and an emotional turmoil; but some of you might understand the struggle.
An organised space makes you feel useless on top of everything you are already feeling, and then probably overwhelmed over the change of environment and lifestyle – you’ll have tons of episodes to hit. Both keep feeding on each other and you will see no end to it.
One thing I thank the universe for daily is for giving me the spirit to strive no matter how bad it gets.
It’s OK to be on an ‘Abstain mode’ for a while, but at the back of your mind always remember things will get better.
It is really OK to be sad for a while – just DON’T give up – The universe has better plans for you.
Trust me
Look Up, Persist Queen.
Love,
V
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